Sermon

Yesterday at church my priest gave an interesting sermon. He started out talking about how much TV you watch in a day. He asked, one hour, two, three, more? They he held up the Bible and asked how many hours we spend in God’s word. He was not trying to make us feel bad; it was more like a reality check. To be honest I did not spend anytime in the word this past week. I can sit down and watch hours of TV with no problem at all.

Think about what we eat. The old saying goes we are what we eat. If you only eat junk food, you will not be a healthy person. The same is true for what we intake on a spiritual and emotional level. If we are not taking in God’s word and only watching bad TV programming we will not have a healthy relationship with God. We are called to be Christians all of the time, not just on Sunday morning. This is something I really need to work on. What we take in we will eventually give out. My goal this week is to start taking in more of God and less of worldly entertainment.

As always you are in my prayers. God Bless.

Struggling

Like so many of us, I have been really struggling lately. I actually had a mental break down this past weekend. Everything seemed to come to a head all at the same time. I have really been fighting with my husband, I am struggling with my weight, I am considered obese on standard charts, I have been stressed out with the kids and I have been depressed. I talked with my mom and she confirmed for me I need to have more God and me time. I get caught up very easily with the everyday tasks that my relationship with Jesus has been taking a backseat to everything else. Some days I am not even sure I allow Him in the car with me. I have really been trying to make sure that I pray everyday and ask God for His help. However, it is easy to ask for help, but it is a lot harder to allow Him to. I know I am a control freak. It is really hard for me to let go and let God. My goal this week is to start reading my bible again.
I know it is no coincidence that every time I walk away from Him I am attacked by the depression and anger bug. My priest once said depression is the result of always looking inward. I am really trying to look at the bigger picture and to be grateful for what I do have.
I apologized to my husband for being so mean to him lately. I think it took him by surprise, in a good way. Our marriage has been on the rocks the last couple of months. I actually told him that if we didn't have children I would be gone. It is a scary thought. He works all the time, usually 60 hours a week. What is worse is that he works nights, so it really feels like he is never here. I have been building up this resentment towards him which is totally unjust. He works so hard, so I don't have to and can stay home with the kids. I am really trying to put myself in his shoes. He misses so much with the kids and I know it upsets him. It is hard for me to not get frustrated when he is not here to help with breakfast, getting the kids to school, dinner and bedtime. I am really trying to focus on the gift my children are to me and to cherish the time I have with them.
I pray for all who might be reading this.